Tonight I spent hanging out with my cousin. I think it was good for both of us. It's always therapy for me. Who would have thought growing up we would have been this close? She is one of the few people that I open up with and talk about things. We just get each other really well. Definately a cool connection.

In other news I am waiting to see what the next two weeks hold.

I have more meetings tomorrow, so I am going to try and get some rest tonight. Florida is going well though. I'll keep you guys updated as soon as I can.

Love? I will tell thee what it is to love! It is to build with human thoughts a shrine, Where Hope sits brooding like a beauteous dove; Where Time seems young, and Life a thing divine. All tastes, all pleasures, all desires combine To consecrate this sanctuary of bliss, Above, the stars in cloudless beauty shine; Around, the streams their flowery margins kiss; And if there's heaven on earth, that heaven is surely this.....

Charles Swain From I will tell thee what it is to love

Safe.

Hey,

     I'm outta here. On my way to some good food, fun, fellowship, and friends. Hope you all are well. Love you. See you some side of eternity.

Johnny

The fact that we are chosen by God seems to be that of controversy. We fear that if we are predestined that perhaps there is injustice in God that some are condemed to Hell without a choice. I do not believe that we have heard correctly when He says He chose us. It is only because for His great love that He chose us, knowing the condition of the human heart, knowing that we are prone to pick up and lay down again our cross to follow Him. In choosing us, He says once and for all that we are His, and nothing seperates us from His love. It is no longer up to us, for He remains in us, and we are in Him. He has paid the price. He alone could rightly walk away from us, but in justice and judgement He has in His nature chosen to be faithful. He has chosen us and will never leave us nor forsake us. He has chosen us. We can be at peace, knowing that even if we are faithless He remains faithful. This is the confidence we have. We were utterly incapable of of choosing Him, and if by some chance we were to make that choice, it would have been impossible for us to remain in Him. It is no more a mystery than a branch abiding in a vine. The branch cannot choose what vine to abide in, but it can abide in the vine that has chosen it. Likewise, man's heart is too corrupt to choose and remain in what is good.

Ok so I am getting a prescription. I figure it is best to have in case. Also, I am getting an epi-pen. Probably another good thing to have, since mine expired in '03. Just thought you would like to be updated on my drug intake.

Ok so I am reminiscing...

Fun times.

What would it look like if people lived together without fear? What would it look like if church was not a social or political gathering? What would it look like if people stood for what they believed was right, understanding that others might not agree with them? What would it look life if people accepted and loved others, regardless of whether or not they ever changed? What would it look like if people died without raising arms, because they refused to stand aside while others in the world were massacred, but rather chose to share in their suffering? What would it look like if we looked in the depths of our souls, to see what we really looked like? What if we saw that we all look like each other? What if we saw the horrors that we were capable of, and cried out to a faithful Creator for mercy? What if we chose to do good, even if it wasn't accepted? What if we abandoned ourselves, to love each other? What if others knew the depths of our pain, the demons we face everyday, and the masks we all put but refuse to acknowledge? What if we really did live free? What would it look like if we took on the perspective of another? What would it look like if we looked at things like a child? What would it look like if we felt the hurt of those who lived through battles in lands we have never seen? What would it look like if we heard the sounds of those in another place? What would those sounds be like? What would we be like if we did......

• G'day
• How are you today?
• Me?
• Oh my head hurts
• Sinus pressure I think
• Yesterday was cool
• We had a blast hanging out last night
• For Patricks birthday
• I was the only guy there without a S.O.
• Lots of jokes about that
• We ate at a hole in the wall mexican joint
• Very cool atmosphere
• Might go back there again
• Met Katie for coffee yesterday
• We just chatted for a bit
• I was invited to a wedding in Kyrgystan
• Don't know that I will make that one.
• It's two days before I have to be in Florida
• The day before my birthday
• Today I have to tidy up a few things around here
• Make a few trips to the airport
• Catch up on some reading
• Maybe do a little writing
• Nothing to big
• This week I start the gauntlet run
• PA this week
• Florida next week
• New Orleans the week after
• Thats a whole lot of driving
• Ron said he would take me to Canada while I am there
• That would rock
• I like this quote
• "The danger of systematizing divine facts is that a man can understand without the help of the Holy Spirit"
• Watchman Nee
• Reading The Normal Christian Life again
• Ok I am off to try to be fruitful
• Not multiplying yet
• Later

You know you love these things....

1. EVER HAD MONO?
Yep

2. LAST PLACE YOU WENT?
downtown

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
probably something at Christmas

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
one or  twice

5. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
food

6. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
pizza

7. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
umm...face

8. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
Suddenly I see 

9. SCHOOL YOU ATTEND/WILL BE ATTENDING?
school of life

10. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:..
Cingular

11. FAVORITE MALL/STORE:
Barnes and Noble

12. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?
2 1/2 years

13. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
can't say I do

14. BIGGEST LIE YOU'VE EVER HEARD?
Something the davil told me once

15. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
a little while back

16. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
Depends on the people

17. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
live off it

18. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
cooked 

19. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD?
yeah

21. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
I dunno

22. WHO WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE FROM?:
Katie

23. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
2

24. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
Jeans and a sweater

26. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?
white grape

27. CAN YOU PLAY PING PONG?
yep

28. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
choc chip cookie dough or cookies and cream

29. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
I have a few

30. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?
Been skydiving

31. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?
yes

32. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?:
two days ago

33. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
which time?

34. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
summers coming

35. LAST TIME YOU WERE IN TROUBLE WITH THE COPS?
does a ticket count as trouble?

36. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
I don't know...not a happy ending

37. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
ello poppet

38. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
chillin

39. BIRTH DATE?
June 11th

40. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU "GROW UP"?
Idont want to grow up

41. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
yeah

42. ARE YOU SMILING?
yes, because of Alex's answer rocked

43. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:
yeah

44. ARE YOU HAPPY?
depends when you catch me, but yeah

45. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yes

46. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE IN PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
sure

47. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
necklace

48. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
eat lunch

49. Describe your last kiss?
never kiss and tell

50. Who's car were you in last?:
mine

52. What color shirt are you wearing?:
white T, black sweater

53. How long is your hair?:
it's not

54. What's on your mind right now?:
my head hurts

55. Last show you watched?:
the bears beating the saints

56. Last thing you drank?:
coffee

57. Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

58. When was the last time you smiled?:
question 42

59. What did you say last?:
something to Grant

60. Where is your phone?:
on my belt

NEXT.... SFCC

Fill this out about your college experience. Put your school in the subject line. The longer ago it was, the more fun the answers will be.

1. Who was your best friend?
I don't have friends (at least thats what Ive been told

2. What sports did you play or how did you workout?
i didn't

3. It's Friday night, where were you?
home or out

4. Were you a partier? Who had the best parties?
nope

5. Were you considered a flirt?
nope

6. Ever skip class? To do what?
probably....nothing to important

7. Were you a nerd?
umm yeah

8. Did you pledge?
nope

9. Can you sing the school song?
no... did we have one? 

10. Who was your favorite teacher?
My history teacher....or Ms. Becker

11. FAVORITE SORORITY OR FRATERNITY?
n/a

12. Were you nominated for any campus awards?
no

13. School mascot?
I dont remember

14. Date spot?
didn't date much

15. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
yeah

16. What was your favorite drink?
i didn't drink at all (imagine that?? a college student who didn't drink!)

17. Favorite road trip memory?
didn't take any in college

18. What dorms did u live in?
lived off-campus

19. Where did u eat dinner?
Home

20. Where did you go most often for lunch?
Johnny's

21. The saying or catch phrase?
"A ring by spring...." oh wait wrong college

22.What did you drive?
for a while a chevy corsica

23. What did you do after graduation?
never graduated.....Yep I'm a drop out

24. What is your best memory?
Can't remember a best one off hand

25. What was the bar hangout?
Didnt go

26. Who was the one?
Neo (just kidding)...still trying to figure it out

27. Where was the resturant hangout?
Denny's

28. What were the big events each year?
Didn't care  

29. Where were the parties held?
hmm don't know

30. What is your biggest regret ?
that i didn't finish