Here I am  again. It's 12:30 and I am waiting for a team to come in. I caught about a 30 min nap just before 10. Slept through at least 5 phone calls in that time. That tells you I am tired. My alarm woke me though.

Rachel and I are alot alike. I guess family should be in a way.

I wonder what I would be like on drugs. I know that is a weird thing to wonder, but being that me and my sister are so mellow, and people think we are high all the time, I wonder if drugs would make me hyper.

I'm tired.

I did a bit of shopping for C-mas tonight.

I am starting to rethink some of my ways of living. It's good to do every now and again. I think we should evaluate how we are living, and whether or not we really believe what we say we do. Does our lives show we believe it?

My parents are on the road. They were in Northern L.A. when I talked to them this morning.

I am having a hard time focusing lately. Actually for a while now. The mind seems to be a hard thing to discipline.

Tomorrow will be a long day. Homeless Christmas dinner is at 4. I have to be up in 5 hours.

There are a lot of people in the world that have it much worse than me.

I got a new book tonight.

I will be glad when this week is over. Sad as well.

Ok I am outta here.

Love you guys.

WITHOUT YOU

[VERSE 1]
And sometimes some man
Would ask to get everything taken away
Before he realizes
Just how good he’s got it made
And please be thankful
Of what you got cause if your not it just might pass you on by
And you will find yourself standin’ there
Asking the question: “why?”

[CHORUS]
And what would I do
If I did not have you
And what would I say
If I had no one to say it to
Yes, I would be
Oh, lonely, without you

[VERSE 2]
And I don’t know how long I’ll be around
I’m travelin’ from town to town
And let me take a moment and release
Just how I feel inside
And all my friends it’s been rough
Oh, and I love you all so
And no matter where I go
It’s in my heart, I’ll hold you close

-Chorus-

[BRIDGE]
And what would I do
If I did not have you
And what would I say
Oh, if I had no one to say…
To say it too
I would be
Oh, I would be so lonely
Without...
Without you

It seems strange to me that I would have memories of a place that I have never been. Maybe that's because they aren't my own memories, but those of another. When I crossed the Ohio River last night, it was like an echo from the past retelling a story that was forgotten. There was heartache in the story, but joy knowing that life had sprung from another's story. All the hopes and dreams that once were so real, are now just a fading memory upon the wind.....It is funny how things in our life are touched by God; things that we think we have totally given over to Him. I think some things were touched the last few days. When it happens, you know. As the wind blows over you, a gentle voice points things out to you like an old friend would; things only a friend could tell you. If you refuse to listen, the warm breeze can often become a bitter chill. I think I prefer the warm breeze....It is amazing that as silent as the road is, it is full of countless stories waiting to be told. She only waits for someone to listen. It's a big world out there, and the road lays waiting for someone to travel upon it.....

Ok I am updating for the sake of updating. Xanga lately has been more of a burden than a joy. I guess that is the way relationships are (as if you can have a relationship with a website).

Today is my dad's birthday. Happy Birthday! 54 years old.

I am leaving for Ohio today. I'll be back tomorrow night.

This weekend should be fun.

I had a dream last night that I got two guns in the mail. For some reason I wore the soft cases that they came in as hats.  Plenty of ammunition here.

I will try an post something worthwhile soon.

Ok I will admit it. I am tired

Last night we took it to the streets.

Now I am awake and on my way to Florida. See ya soon.

I am trying to figure out how to deal with a few things. Not so much bad things, just trying to juggle some, and others will work themselves out eventually. Life is good.

I was thinking about how good I have it. I have more than I could ever have dreamed for really. God has given me so much, most importantly (salvation aside for the moment) He has given me incredible family and friends.

The joy of blessing others is really more of a blessing to me. I don't think that any missionary could deny the fact that often when they go to those who need the gospel, they find themselves touched more than they would have ever thought. How beautiful are the feet of those who bring the message. It's interesting that something as common and unsightly as feet are considered beautiful when you are bearing this gift. Even the part of the body that gets little honor and attention is made beautiful.

Alright, I am off. Today will be busy. Catch ya on the flip.

It was a beautiful sunrise this morning. I should watch those more often.

Today should be interesting. Bible study at 11. Oxygen tonight. I said I would go so I am planning on it.

Tomorrow night I head to Florida again. Wedding on Saturday.

The separation between the sacred and the secular is often in our minds. That is what Tozer alluded to. As long as you understand that the secular is not sinful, but sin attaches itself to said secular, I think I can handle that. "Whether you eat or drink, do all to the glory of God." Pretty common things to do.

I am still pretty stoked about the moleskin journals I got. How messed up is that? They are just simply cool.

Did I say the sunrise was awesome this morning?

I need to make some calls.

And take a shower. So I am off.

Here is a classic one.

• Last night I got a flat tire
• The bubble I have been driving on for 20,000 miles popped
• It happened at a light
• About 400 yards from the church
• So that wasn't too bad
• Now my car has a donut
• It's kinda flat as well
• But it serves the pupose
• Yesterday was a full moon
• I like those
• I did some Christmas shopping last night
• Picked up presents for 2 people
• Also got another online
• And bought myself a threepack of moleskin journals (score)
• They were only $10
• Today I have to get my tire fixed
• And study
• I am supposed to teach Bible Study tomorrow
• I guess it would help if I studied the Bible
• It is amazing how much we hurt people
• And how often
• When a lot of times we don't even know it
• I think our sin hurts God a lot more than we know it
• Actually I know it does
• I have a lot to do this week
• This month
• The next year
• Maybe then I can rest
• I don't so much want to rest
• Only to start looking to God
• I am sure that is the only way to find rest
• I guess I should start the day now
• Hope to hear from some people today
• We will see
• 20 days to Christmas
• Later